You set me free

I got a job! K-Mart on Sheridan in Peoria. I'm so excited. I have orientation tomorrow. What's cool about it is...after you have your interview, they tell you they'll give you a call back if you got the job and then you'll come in and fill out some information. Not for me! Right after I had my interview...the lady went back and talked to the other boss and said, "She's a go." So I filled out the information and they told me when to come in for orientation. I must have been awesome. ;) Haha.

I'm so excited to actually have a job and be able to pay for the things I need and want. Kevin and I are going to get a phone plan together. We're going to do it within the next couple of days and I'm just going to pay him back whenever I get paid. Woot. My own cell phone again. Thank the lord.

I need to get a new door soon. I don't want to have to be driving in the snow with no window. I'd freeze my ass off. Which I already am so it would be ten times worse. Yikes.


Good news! I have a new niece! Gretchen had Penelope on November 9th. She's absolutely beautiful and I'm not just saying that because she's my niece. She's perfect. And so alert. I love it. I am so proud of Mama Gretchen and especially proud of Jonathan for actually playing the daddy role. I hope to god he sticks with it. He definitely has potential to be a great father.

Still madly in love with my Kevin Patrick. Nothing new there. He makes me happy. I get stressed out a lot and take it out on him, but hopefully working and having my own money will calm that down. I'll be able to get anxiety medicine so that should help out a lot.


I've got to go put drops in my baby's ears because he's all clogged up. :P


Love love love.

Things have been completely crazy around here lately. Me and Kev's "best friend" Steve got into a huge fight because he was being a complete ASSHOLE. He said many very degrading things to me. He had the nerve to call me a low life and I'll never amount to anything. He will never be forgiven.


Eryn is also being completely ridiculous. Her and Steve are both trying to break up Kevin and I. I am so close to just giving up because I'm so sick of their childish bullshit. I can't deal with all of this.

Kevin is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I would be a fool to leave him. He continuously tells me that he needs me, doesn't want me to leave him, and wants to marry me. I hope he sticks to what he says.

Yes, I may not being doing much with my life right now, but I am trying. I have been applying for jobs all week and Mom is coming to visit soon to help me set up for college. It's not like I'm going to be sitting on the computer, doing nothing with myself for the rest of my life. It's just taking sometime because I'm afraid. Sue me.

It's 2:46am and I'm currently waiting for Kevin to get back from an EMS call. There was a car wreck on 2nd street and one of the people in the car wasn't responding. Very sad. I pray to god that it's no one we know.


I have a secret for you all that I will soon let out. Give it some time and get excited. You never know what it will be. And DON'T assume. Just shut your hole until you hear from me. ;)


Love love love.

My baby bought me a promise ring last night. :) I don't get it for two more weeks because we had it sent in to get resized. I'm so excited.
I said, "I hope you know...that's a promise ring." and he said, "Well, I guess that's what it is then." :))) I love him so much.  He means the world to me. He continuously promises me that he's never going to leave me. I love it. I have so much on my mind, but I just don't know how to put it into words so I'll update this later.


OH! I passed my GED test. My scores said that I'm smarter than 80% of high school graduates. Woot woot.

I'm currently sitting in our new home, watching Dexter, while wearing Kev's fireman coat. Our children (pets) are in the room with me. We now have three. Samara, my cat who will be 2 on St. Patrick's Day, Cecile, kitten who is about 3 months old, and Moo,  Kev's sister Tobey's dog that we took in is maybe 4? I'm crazy. :P

My boyfriend is so amazing in so many different ways. I can't even explain it. He always apologizes when we get in a fight saying, "I'm sorry I'm not the greatest boyfriend," when in all actuality...he is. He puts up with so much of my shit. My bitch fits, my not having a job right now, my stress about living so far away from my family, and everything else. He's wonderful. Really. We've been together 8 months now and I can honestly not wait for so many more months to come. Cheesy? Oh well.

I was going to type some long entry, but I'm having Dexter withdrawals. I can't concentrate on this and Dex. Sorry!


Love.

I'm sure most of you heard about the horrible wreck that happened on Cloverdale here in Chillicothe. It was four kids. Todd Stark, 22, was the driver. Rachael Deyo, 19, Todd's girlfriend, was the front passenger. Breanne Hulsizer, 19, was sitting behind Todd. Breanne's boyfriend, Ben Davis, 18, was sitting behind Rachael. They were going to fast and ran into a utility pole. Breanne was thrown from the vehicle and died from multiple blunt force trauma. Ben was hanging half way out the back window and is in critical condition. There's a high chance of him dying or just not waking up from his coma. Rachael suffered a broken arm and I think some broken ribs, but other than that...she should be coming home in the next two days. Todd has short-term memory loss and is fine. He should be home today.

Kevin and I both worked with Rachael and Breanne at Taco Bell. Breanne always had a smile on her face. I think I saw her upset ONCE. It's just so horrible to think that no one will ever see that smile again...only in pictures. You would also never see Breanne without Rachael. They were best friends. Connected at the hip. Rachael just lost her mother about a year ago and has just lost her best friend. I can not imagine what she feels like right now. Ben is in a coma with no idea that the girl he spoke of some day marrying...is no longer alive. I feel so completely horrible for all of them and all of their families.

I know for a fact that being a fire fighter that was on call for that wreck and seeing everything...messed Kevin up pretty bad. He says it keeps playing over and over in his head and Breanne's face is burnt into his mind forever. I could never have the strength to do the job that he does. Especially in your own town when you have a chance of seeing people you know in this condition. I respect him even more for what he does.

Tell the people you care about that you love them more often. You don't know when their time is up. Rest In Peace, Brea. You will definitely be missed. Hang in there, Ben. Please pray for everyone that was involved in the wreck and their families. They need it right now.


Love Kylie.

Me and Kev got a house! So excited. Right now it looks like the damn Beverly Hillbillies, but Kev, his dad, and his uncle Chris are going to fix it up and I'm going to help as much as my pansy self can. ;)

Tomorrow, I need to wake up early and call about my GED. I need to quit holding back. I need to quit being so afraid of actually growing up.
I also really REALLY need to go job hunting. It's getting ridiculous.


I'm pretty happy with the way things are going in my life. I miss my East Peoria friends and my family. Come chill at my house when we get everything settled in. :)



Love.

Why do I get so defensive when I think a girl has an interest in my boyfriend?
Or automatically hate a girl if Kev has had a past with her?
and always call them ugly even if it IS true. ;)
What the fuck.

I'm so extremely happy lately. It's a bit redonkulous. Fah real.
I love it though. I love Kev so much.


Shit. This was going to be longer, but I'm tired and want to go snuggle up to my sicky boy.

My weakness is that I care too much.

I'm not sure what is wrong with me. I've been having major mood swings. I get mad over the littlest thing and it's usually at Kev.
I need to start working on that.

I got my license, called about my G.E.D. and applied for La Gondola. So I'm feeling a little bit better.
BUTTTTTT.

Kevin's dad doesn't think I'm good enough for him. He also thinks that Kev is just dating me for the sex. I no longer have respect for his father. That is complete and utter bullshit. I'm sick of the fucking HOLIER THAN THOU attitude. Grow the fuck up. You've been married how many times? Thank you. you obviously know nothing about relationships.




I feel better.

What I'm doing wrong.
I never feel like I'm good enough.

I'm so happy these days. Kev and I had a talk and now things are going pretty great.

I'm sure you all heard about the fire at The Hub in Edlestein. Kev helped put it out and I sat and watched. It was huuuuge.
I'm excited for the next couple of days. Saturday is a party at Steve's house and then Wednesday is 'Kylie All Day' day. :D



Anywho. Nothing much has been going on lately. Just the fact that I'm a BADASS and killed a wasp all by myself yesterday. Hahaha.


Kev got a Mac and it's pretty gnarly.


I'm gonna go back to watching the Suite Life on Deck. :P


Love love love.

 

My sister Shauna had her baby yesterday morning. Her name is Amelie Faith. 10lbs 10 oz. & 20 in. long. She's a biggin'
She's sooooo cute. She's such a little chubby bunny. I love it.


I went with Dad, Gretchen, Jonny, and Veronica to Springfield yesterday to see Shauna and the new baby. I love my family.
Julian is getting so tall and Elliot gets even more beautiful each day. I only wish they all lived closer.

I don't know if ya heard or saw...but I CHOPPED OFF ALL MY HAIRRRR.

So...Kev almost had to call Rescue 33 last night. Because when I got home..
I felt like I was going to puke and pass out. Like...I was waiting to pass out, but I didn't, thank jebus.
Well....I had to go pee so I went to get up, but I couldn't walk. I could not walk on my own. Kevin had to practically carry me to the bathroom.
Then we went and laid down again and he said that I was mumbling about how I was scared and I love him and I didn't want to die. He said he could barely understand me. I finally fell asleep around 5am and when I woke up...I could still barely walk. I was so scared.


Here's my cat.

Her name was Pickles, but I changed it to Samara. Like the creepy girl from The Ring. :P

Everything is fine with Kev. I just feel like I'm not good enough for him sometimes.


I got a cat today.

I am such a shitty girlfriend. I don't know how long he's going to keep me around.

I am currently sitting in front of the computer, smoking a cigarette, and thinkin' away. Kevin and I have little bitch fits every now and then (which are usually started by me), but we are doing great. Atleast I think. :P Looking back like five years ago...I never thought I'd be this happy. I never thought I would have a boy that loved me so much. I thought I'd be alone forever. Really, I did.

I got pampered today and it was fabulous. Kevin's brother, Louie's girlfriend, Deanna used me as her model for her tests at Regency today. I got a free facial and manicure. It felt so good. I feel so pretty right now. :)

When we got home...Louie called for me and Kev to come into the kitchen and he was like, "There's a fuckin' bat in here." I was like, "WHAT?!" There was a damn bat laying on my kitchen rug. I almost crapped myself. Louie rolled it up in the rug and flung it out the window. :P


I am so tired. I got up at 7:30 with four hours of sleep and then when Kevin left for work at two, I watched tv for a little bit and fell asleep. I just woke up about a half hour ago. Awesome. I'm still so tired. I'll probably sleep until Kevin gets home and then be up all night. Nice.


Come hang out at my apartment, turds.

Love. Love is all ya need.

Indeed indeed. I am so incredibly happy right now, it's scary. Kev is the most amazing thing that has happened to me in a long long time. We got an apartment on April 29th. It's huge. Two bedrooms, two bathrooms, and the living room and kitchen are giant for an apartment. I love it. You should all come party sometime. ;) I'm getting my license tomorrow which is scary as hell. Haha.


I'm so ridiculously in love with Kevin Patrick Schmidt. It feels so good to have someone love me as much as I love them. He shows me lots of affection. It's awesome. Anywho. I'm happy. Suck me.

I'm so tired. I'm at work right now and it's completely dead in here. I've been here for about an hour and a half. Poop. I just wanna go home, take a nap, then play Sims 2 until Kev gets home from work. :P

I'm so happy these days. It's crazy. Patrice took me to get my permit the other day. I only missed two. Woo. That day...Kevin took me driving in the '84 Impala. Ha. He said I drove fine. :) Then yesterday we went to Dad's and I drove in his truck. Then Mom came with Cori, Julian, and Elliot. I missed my babies. They love Kev, which is great. :D I went driving around in Mom's PT with Kev and her. I almost killed us. Ha. She told me to go and then they both started screaming for me to stop. I didn't know what they were screaming about until I looked to the left and saw a truck coming so I slammed on the breaks. We all almost had a heart attack. Jesus. Other than that...they said I drove great.

 

 

Welp. Nothing else really to talk about. Kev and I should be getting an apartment soon. So excited.


Love love love.